if there isnt a 2nd chance for me to say this

i'm sorry lovelies..i'm not feeling good like now..
pardon me for all the sad posts..
i'm just thinking of many things..what if..i dont have a 2nd chance to say this..

SS501: through you,i got to know more lovelies..i got to know them better..songs that you sung..encourage me,brightens up my day,make me reflect and think about my past and to think for the future..i'm really thankful for you,SS501.

Jungmin: Jungmin ahh..gomowo...it's you who taught me to live a life with a thankful heart..it's you whom i got to know iris and boonyun better...you slowly leads me to see your true heart..a thankful heart that you have..joanne once asked me..why do i donate money to the uncle singing at the underpass at novena..i learnt that giving is more than receiving..and that's what i did...
JungMin,i'm thankful for who you are..your true self.

KyuJong: Kyujong-ish..yes i know my attention isnt on you..but you showed me how to take note of the people around me..learning how to cherish each and everyone of them..yes..i learn that..i learn to cherish my family,my lovelies,my friends.
KyuJong,gomowo..i'm thankful for who you are..your true self.

YoungSaeng: Saengie..gomowo..although you have been the quietest member in the group..but you taught me something..you taught me how to listen to other people's needs...which i'll always forget..sometimes..listening is just the best way to know someone better...i'm slowly learning that..giving concerns to people..no matter how long or how short it can be..it can just be a sentence, how are you?..
YoungSaeng,i'm thankful for who you are..your true self.

HyunJoong: leader..gomowo..i dont know what to really say..you are a person who never gives up...you will do everything for someone without thinking..that's call sacrifice...i learn that in life you need to give up something to receive something..to me its really hard when it applies it in my life..i never wanna let go of anything..
HyunJoong,i'm thankful for who you are..your true self.

HyungJun: baby,you will never know how much i worry,think,misses about you..but i'm really thankful...gomowo..you never fails to cheer someone up when the person is feeling down..you have grown up..have mature..baby,it somehows..one way or another...when i'm feeling down,you never fails to cheer me up..in one way or another..coincidence??probably..baby, be strong..i'll choose to believe in what you said..i'll wait..please dont disappoint me..
HyungJun,i'm thankful for who you are..your true self.

Iris: dont be shock to see your name here kayy..i'm thankful for who you are..you encouraged me a lot..when i start to worry about the boys..you reassured me that with the meanings of 501..
i'm thankful for you being in my life...you added oil for me when i was having my mid sem tests..when i felt so stress..you told me to relax so that i'll do better..thank you..thank you...

Boonyun,Jasmin,Bianca,ZhiXin,Lin: YAY!it's really great to know you..although the time we known each other is really short...it was really great to listen to music high with boonyun..so fun!!!its really awesome to talk to jasmin when everyone's left and left the 2 of us there...its really great to have this dongsaeng bianca..although i feel so old when she calls me unnie...she's always there crazy with me..its really fabulous to understand how the 2 of us feel at this time..zhixin,thank you(:lin ah lin..see lahh..i really didnt talk to you that much..i only can rmb you sang love like this when we oovoo..hahaha..but nonetheless,its nice to know you(:

Joanne: hey girl..its really great to know you..we started off talking like mad when the topic was on SS501..rmb how we first met..you me iris and i cant rmb your friend's name..but she knows my friend..hahaha..subway..talk like mad..and thats was how we first knew each other..i'm thankful that i have known you..life became more interesting...when i got so pissed off with the dance class..you came and helped me out...thank you..thank you..

Wendy: unnie..the first day i ever talked to you was on 5 Jan 2010..time flies..the numerous conversations we had..the numerous times when we shared our little secrets..the numerous times i receive surprises from you..i'm just so thankful..this might seems short..but deep down in my heart..the numerous times i want to thank you is that much..thank you and thank you and thank you.

Family: i know no one will ever see this..but..i'm thankful for my parents,my grandma..my sisters..my brother-in-law..my cousins..relatives..i'm not saying that i'm writing this at the last point means that i don care about you of SS501 and friends are more important than you..some things doesnt need to spell out word for word..it's just in my heart..thank you for being there always..the times i cry..the times i ell sick..the times that i was happy..i thank you..family has always been there for me no matter what..i'm sorry that i did gave empty promises..i'll promise i'l change that..thank you..